Come with me into the field of sunflowers
A couple of years ago, in the thick of early motherhood, I was standing barefoot in the garden at midnight, rocking my baby as he finally, after hours of colicky crying, drifted off to sleep.
I remember feeling as though my nervous system was stuck on high alert. Everything felt loud and urgent. His crying. My inner critic. The endless to-do list in my head. The fear that I was doing something wrong.
I loved my son in a way I had never loved anyone before but motherhood had reawakened old patterns of self-criticism and self-sacrifice and perfectionism that I thought I’d healed, in a way I never expected.
Everything suddenly felt so much more precious, so much more fragile.
At the time, I didn’t have the capacity for long self-help books, complicated healing protocols or ten-step morning routines.
I needed something much gentler than that. Something I could listen to while walking around the block with my baby in the carrier. Something I could return to while nursing him in the early hours. Something that did not ask more of me but helped me release the things – expectations, overthinking, perfectionism – that were exhausting me.
I think the seeds for Becoming The Relaxed Women were planted there.
In the middle of exhaustion. In the middle of the chaos. In the middle of being a woman trying her best to hold everything together while quietly longing for a calmer, more compassionate way to live.
Over the last couple of years, I have been gathering the ideas and practices that helped me soften some of the patterns underneath my anxiety and burnout – urgency, busyness, perfectionism, self-criticism, false guilt, self-sacrifice, unworthiness.
Because I knew that so many women are exhausted by the way we are living.
And slowly, this course began to take shape. Not as another self-improvement project, but as a safe place for women to rest. A space you can return to whenever you need. Audio lessons to listen to while you are walking, folding laundry, doing the washing up, cooking, driving or resting. Gentle practices you can weave into the sacred chaos of everyday life. Guided relaxations and gentle movement flows that help your nervous system experience slowness, safety and self-worth.
I created it for the women who keep hitting burnout. For the women who appear to be coping from the outside but are deeply tired inside. For the women who are afraid to rest because they’re worried everything will fall apart if they stop.
Perhaps I also created it for the version of myself who needed someone to say:
You are allowed to rest now.
My hope is that, as you move through this course, you feel seen and safe and supported. That you begin to discover that stillness is not dangerous, that rest is not something you must earn, that your worth does not rise and fall depending on your productivity.
There is a line by Mary Oliver I often think about:
Come with me into the field of sunflowers.
That is what I hope this course feels like. Not another demand. Just a quiet meadow where you can rest for a little while.
If you would like to explore Becoming The Relaxed Woman, you can do so here.